I confess, I was grumbling and complaining last evening, mostly in my mind. But it left me feeling grumpy and blue. Why? Because I was looking at my circumstances. I was counting all the health issues I have going on right now- seven. I was complaining because in my opinion there are so many people around me that aren’t putting God first in their lives. They are making choices contrary to his will. People who I love deeply and want the best for them. I was discouraged because I don’t feel like my writing is going anywhere. I just wanted to give up, no more blogging.
I knew exactly what my problem was, I was focusing on the wrong stuff. But I allowed myself to wallow for a while in my misery and disappointment with life. Let’s face it, no one ever has a perfect set of circumstances. There are always challenging relationships, trials and difficulties which are a part of everyone’s life. Life is hard a lot of time. Life can be exciting, joyful, fulfilling, satisfying and rewarding too, but it isn’t often enough. At least, that is how I felt last night.
I don’t mean to sound like a pessimist. I just know life never quite turns out how I planned or dreamed it to be. God enlightened me this morning about my problem. I am impatient. I want heaven on earth now! I want life to be perfect. I don’t want life to be disappointing and hard. Every time I place my expectation on this life to be like heaven, I get discouraged. Why do I do that to myself? I need to remember that heaven is coming someday but it is not now.
Jesus warned us about life here on earth. “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33 NLT) He did not tell his disciples that once they believed in him, his Father would make life comfortable and easy for them. He told them they could have peace despite their circumstances. He told them to take heart, cheer up! He had overcome, he had won the victory over Satan. He wanted them to remember that Satan was already defeated, but he was still going to wreak havoc for a time.
I have to be patient for God’s plan to be fulfilled in his timing. When Satan is finally thrown into the lake of fire, God will create a new heaven and new earth. Literally, heaven will be on earth! The two become one and it will be far greater and better than I could ever plan. Even if all my plans and dreams came true in this life, it would pale in comparison to what God has in store. I can rejoice and have peace, knowing that I get to participate in the new heaven and new earth! I need to keep my focus on that stuff. Join me in focusing on the eternal promises we have, not on life’s imperfections. Then we can experience his peace and his joy, instead of feeling grumpy and blue.